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This time, I must not live in the past nor plan for the future, in this time we must live in the present~ It is essential in life that we live rather than think of living...as we progress in our growth and evolution, we develop the ability to retain our thoughts after our actions~ thus freeing ourselves to live our lives to our fullest. ~Lost Thoughtz
.: picture of you/webcam feed here!:. Archivez 04/01/2003 - 05/01/2003 05/01/2003 - 06/01/2003 06/01/2003 - 07/01/2003 07/01/2003 - 08/01/2003 08/01/2003 - 09/01/2003 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004 |l|e|a|v|e| |a| |m|e|s|s|a|g|e|	Tuesday, October 26, 2004 hey jon... do you remember jennifer? yah... yah i do... why am i thinking of her now? why am i saddened by these feelings that come to me when shes in my head... cuz you know you really liked her... but that was so long ago... why now...why would i feel this way.. who knows... freda says its the weather... but i think its something else... she reminds you of someone else in your life... and as it turns out... the same feelings you had for her you share with this person... those feelings of hurt.. and sorrow... from trying to be awknowledged... but never being fulfilled... it hurts... because you like her and she doesnt like you and at worse you led urself to believe you had a chance... i dont know... it just hurts... my heart it hurts... i hate checking blogs becuz... i look into their lives... and i long to be a part of the story... to matter.. but realizing im am not a major part... it just makes me sad... i long to be cherished... i long to be awknowledged... to be cared for... my heart bears an emptiness and as i rub my eyes to try to erase the feeling i shudder as i realize this emptiness is really deep... i am lonely... and i hate it... Jon at 9:14 PM	|i|m| |f|e|e|l|i|n|g| Sorry...if your reading this, you might not understand some parts...or, worse, you'll actually misinterpret some posts...don't sweat it juss read the... [ Disclaimer ] --outside linkz-- --Blogz-- Anna's Blog Bev's Blog Bridgette's Xanga Camille's Blog Cathy's Xanga Denise's Blog Francis's Blo Freda's Blog Jen's Blog JC's Xanga Jesus's Blog Jon's Xanga Mel's Xanga Nikki's Blog Nino's Blog Salpi's Diary Sean's Xanga --Sitez-- Denise's Site John's Site Kae's Site Kris's Site Meryl's Site GHS Dance Drill |a|b|o|u|t| |m|e| Name: Jon Age: 18 Birthday: March 6 (Pisces) }{ Location: My first home is Glendale (that's where i come home to after my adventures) while my second home is in Oxnard (might as well, i'm there every week or so) School: Not currently enrolled in any schools ~ future hopez: Cal State Fullerton. Marital Status: Single ~ the summer is meant for having fun and having no restrictions~! Craving: Quote of the Month: God grant me the courage to change the things I can change The serenity to accept those I cannot change And the wisdom to know the difference ~Anonymous |f|a|v|o|r|i|t|e|z| Color: Blue and Silver Clothing Brand: Fall into the GAP...I likey~! Drink: Jamba Juice: Razzmatazz ~ umm yesh I like this drink...Ray makes it for meeh haha~ Restaurant: Chang Woo finally reopened ~ I wonder if they are still hiring hmm... Music: I am ECLETIC (Meryl's word) Ever since i've been driving my friends around, they have the tendency to bring in their CD's into my car...and i have the tendency to keep them. |a|u|g|u|s|t| |e|v|e|n|t|z| |a|u|g|u|s|t| |t|o| |d|o|
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